the peace that suddenly feels so amplified on the journey to je. being alone suddenly feels so comfortable that i'm enjoying it; with the music on my ipod going on and on, blasting on in my ear. yet the words are so ambiguous i cant catch, melody so enchanting taht it's just emotion-evoking. many racy thoughts, but i never understood what they meant or what they were. difficult to pen, maybe it's time. what an emo week.

time for what i dont know. God, please carry me. guide me. teach me what i need to know. i dont know what to think and feel anymore. talk to me. tell me if i should do what i think i should. but it feels so unfair. God, make the decision for me please.

staying quiet feels so suddenly comfortable.

and im so wrong about that guy. i dont know what rumours he tried to spread. but wth. i gave him the benefit of doubt. God will handle him.