two papers down! and still counting down. this is torture. all the late night burnings is causing a freaking outbreak. i think i had 4 horrendously indescribable nightmares in this week already. all the OB, IA questions haunted my mind. then comes violation in the toilet like WTH! to think i thought the same dream cant happen twice, it proved me wrong. handsdown totally. it continued and same place same look. just different character. damn those ahpeks in my dreams. it's the sickiest thing ever, to be touched in my dream. wth seriously. i finally caught a wink after my paper today since i burn my night till the paper time with 4hrs to slp.

then came the horror. it was shit. i was so flabberghasted! all the formats and whatever budget, cash flow, balance sheet format all went haywire! urgh! to hell with the sudden mental block. and i coudnt seem to remember whatever ive learnt. shat! i cant wait for this disaster to be over. like get it over and done with.

God, i place my examination results in your hands. use your loving hands to create miracles, the ones You have for me as Your child. there is nothing i can do anymore, so i'll leave everything in Your hands. and purge out all nightmares i have in my mind for the past weeks, bless me good sleep, sweet dreams with Your love Lord Father.

and i pray for all those i love deeply.

calm after storm. i feel so much better. i'll just take whatever comes. its my bad, so i can only tolerating and suck it up. you have always been my key; and you'll forever be baby.

i was ecstatic to the max yesterday. it was bestie day after all. since adi wasnt free, it was only me and twinnie. and i cant believe we blabber on the moment i step into the esplanade library to meet her. nuisance to all but who cares. so much for mugging ob. wow. then it was shopping after satisfying our macs craving. so we got BFF bracelets, rings. and now we areeven using the same brand but different scent. twinnie is the way to go man. as long it's not translated into fashion resemblance. i thank God for her; someone who truly cares and see whatever i tried to be gungho about. really doesnt escape her eyes. but i was really elated and thankful. for the first time i love all those accessories we shared (: BFF darling.

why do i have to feel bad and unknowingly try to be more sensitive to you when you dont even care about me. you dont put in the effort, yet whenever you sulk, i feel like i need to do something. why? you gave no shit about me, so why should i? but it's just so not in me to not care for you. God bless this person in resolving his/her identity crisis.