what a day. so many things happened in a day. wake up to a fight through msg. what a thing to wake up to. but well, all's settled. so my mood had a change for the better. it's just a misunderstanding.

then i copied my notes for the lectures i've skipped. it is then my mood changed again. i dont know what to say actually. i enjoyed the chat, yet somehow it makes me feel "so near yet so far". whatever i felt puzzles me. uncertainty, not ready yet it feels nice. i dont know if it exactly makes me feel very whole at the moment. what a toll.

then it dipped when i chance upon something which pisses me off. how can i be wrong when the info came totally from someone close to that person. and then the scariest thing is when you realise they are not who you expect them to be. i dont put words into people's mouth unless they create something out of nothing which pisses me off. to think i used to think these people are nice people, people whom i've yet to draw close to and get to know them better. i was so wrong. this is call pot calling kettle black. and i used to think in such an organisation, there shouldnt be people who are immature about handling things. but boy, i was proven wrong right in front of my very own eyes. there's no point in fighting to be the most popular, or rather saying and acting like you're the most popular. it's really uncalled for. i mean try so hard for what. if you are, then you are and CONGRATS. but if you're not, there's no use fighting to be it and not being yourself. it's so uncomfortable not being yourself.